Getting organised – and getting over it

The dreaded 30th birthday has come and gone, leaving behind a comforting feeling of contentment and a general air of satisfaction with my lot in life. Sure, there’s an awful lot I haven’t achieved (such as, well, ANYTHING) just yet, but I’m comfortable in who I am, and where I’m going – so I’m sure to get there eventually.

For the last couple of years, my life has felt like it was spiraling out-of-control.  Now that the paramedics (divorce lawyers, friends and loved ones) have done the bulk of the work in clearing up the emotional train-wreck, it’s time for me to start getting things back in order and clawing my way back into the driver’s seat of my own life…

# Personal progress this month:

1. My eating habits have improved greatly – meals have been much better planned, and the meal choices have been much healthier. It’ll take a while to fully rub off on my boys, but overall their eating is improving too, albeit it a little more slowly.
2. I’ve been exercising more regularly - it’s the single biggest influencing factor on how well I sleep and handle stress.
3. I’ve switched to decaf coffee - with occasional slips on special occasions – but even then, I had no more than 2 a day. I’m even experimenting with herbal teas!
4. I’ve embraced the whole giving-my-ex-his-surname-back issue! Heck, I’m finally comfortable with who I am, so – why not be ME?! I’ve already kicked the process off, having reverted to my maiden name at work and at home – and frankly – I’m loving it!

# Getting my shit together progress this month:

• Ensuring quality of life for my kids – I enrolled my eldest son in drama classes last term; the classes have finally started up and he’s LOVING it! My younger son has been enrolled in swimming lessons, which start up in a couple of weeks.
• I’ve renewed my driver’s license.
• I’ve applied for my visa for the China trip.
• I’ve decided on a new GP: closer to home, who specialises in paediatrics, adolescent health, women’s and family health. Hopefully a better match to our needs than our last GP.
• I’ve chased up the maintenance which is still outstanding (ARGH! builders!) on my new house.
• I’ve made haircut appointments for the boys and I for before I go away to China on holiday!
• I’ve contacted my ex to discuss arrangements for our son’s birthday.

I’m undergoing a bit of an attack of the ‘can I really be bothered with all this?’ and ‘is this really what I want? and for how long?’ on a couple of other fronts, but at least I’m aware of my concerns, and it’s not bothering me enough to decide on a change of direction just yet, so I’ll just monitor how I’m feeling for the moment and give some deeper thought to what I want.